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Hey all,

Sorry that I am a day late with my announcement, I got a bit side-track with a couple of things, and when I had time to write the article, it was a bit late and I was a little too tired to write. Now, I'm a bit more awake and ready to tackle the day.

Anyway, let's get to the meat of this journal. On both here and Facebook, I got a good amount of advice, but I will say some of it is pretty contradictory. One guy told me that I should have a deadline, focus on reaching my goal, and finishing it or I will always feel like I'm never going to progress. The other guy told me that I shouldn't sweat the small stuff, that I shouldn't try to give Monsturra a definite final design, and I should just have fun with it, basically, instead of trying to be perfect. However, I do think many of them is missing the point of my last journal.

What's going on is, really, I am just plain out burnt out of doing this whole thing. Now, that sounds like I am quitting, but I'm not. The matter is that I still have a passion and desire to have a original IP kaiju character of my own, but the drive is a bit weak at the moment, mostly due to having crash and burn a few times. Being a lazy person in general makes me not want to do all the hard work that is require to do the whole storytelling thing, and throwing on top of being always worn out/disinterest in completing the story is actually doing more mental harm to me than anything else.

So, I have decided to follow the advice of one of my friends on DA, take a break until those creative juices come back. It's best to get some rest, then tackle the problem head long instead of constantly dragging out ideas that you feel aren't going to work, and make you want to give up. I'm in no way going to stop drawing anytime soon, but I do wish to branch out a bit and just put the Behemoth Chronicles on the backburner, for now. I'm not going to make a deadline for the whole rest thing either.

Later,
Jake
Feeling a bit better than I did last night. I'm at work bright now, but I will tell you all my future plans when I am at home.
Hey guys,

I have been re-evaluating things of late, and I'm not exactly happy with it. Once again, I feel like I want to either redesign Monsturra or toss him out, and start all over again. And, really, could you blame me? Lately, I been feeling some peer pressure from various stuff, though my jealously of watching my friends who created their kaiju and actually know what they want from it is really hitting me hard. I mean, here I am, thirty-six-years-old, and I can't even decide what my own kaiju will look like, and what it's name will be.

Furthermore, for some stupid reason, when I do this shit, I feel this massive guilt. Mostly, I feel like I am failing people who have put their trust in me and tried to help me. On top of that, I feel like apologizing, though part of me don't think I really need to. Also, I do feel some regret for posting my artwork online, because it just seem to cause me more stress than I need.

Maybe I should just quit DA and Facebook, and just leave my artwork offline. I mean, maybe that will make me happy when no one else sees how much of a joke I am.

Jake
New artwork will be drawn shortly. Just been busy/lazy.
Hey all,

Sorry that I am a day late with my announcement, I got a bit side-track with a couple of things, and when I had time to write the article, it was a bit late and I was a little too tired to write. Now, I'm a bit more awake and ready to tackle the day.

Anyway, let's get to the meat of this journal. On both here and Facebook, I got a good amount of advice, but I will say some of it is pretty contradictory. One guy told me that I should have a deadline, focus on reaching my goal, and finishing it or I will always feel like I'm never going to progress. The other guy told me that I shouldn't sweat the small stuff, that I shouldn't try to give Monsturra a definite final design, and I should just have fun with it, basically, instead of trying to be perfect. However, I do think many of them is missing the point of my last journal.

What's going on is, really, I am just plain out burnt out of doing this whole thing. Now, that sounds like I am quitting, but I'm not. The matter is that I still have a passion and desire to have a original IP kaiju character of my own, but the drive is a bit weak at the moment, mostly due to having crash and burn a few times. Being a lazy person in general makes me not want to do all the hard work that is require to do the whole storytelling thing, and throwing on top of being always worn out/disinterest in completing the story is actually doing more mental harm to me than anything else.

So, I have decided to follow the advice of one of my friends on DA, take a break until those creative juices come back. It's best to get some rest, then tackle the problem head long instead of constantly dragging out ideas that you feel aren't going to work, and make you want to give up. I'm in no way going to stop drawing anytime soon, but I do wish to branch out a bit and just put the Behemoth Chronicles on the backburner, for now. I'm not going to make a deadline for the whole rest thing either.

Later,
Jake

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Thanks for faving Poised - Color. :peace:
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Welcome
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Welcome, my friend. Sorry I haven't been commenting of late.
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Welcome, and you too (in a belated one). I hope you had a nice one.
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